Shall my Mary J Dance?

Sure, Jon. First, things I believe are real. You're either upset or possessively jealous with either my sluttiness or getting out and socializing in a way you don't want me to. Despite so many severe attacks of denial from before, I don't know why I'm convinced you could be possessively jealous with me. .... hmph... I'm thinking it is possible you could want to punish me more with more of your subjective bullshit games, but I'm going to ignore that too. ..... I'm going to play with today's signs and signs I've seen before and go with it as if something more serious could happen........... ~parts of me just wanting you to only sway my quiet limp Mary Jane around and just dance and sway and dance and sway and saying nothing with no drug induction~....... Jon, what response do you really have to say from the history we both came from? I know you've probably said a lot more hateful things behind my back, but do you remember the day you even gave my daughter a death threat? Do you just not remember who you were? Do you not even remember why you were that way? What say you with the extremely opposite change of heart? What say of you? How would you idealize and visualize us to be in the now and in the future? What is the description of it? How serious of a promise or truth or trust do you think it could ever be? .......................... If I were not playing along... I seriously just don't trust you Jon. There would be some thoughts that match Coco and the Baron and her knowing what type of man he always was, but there are also more bitter and severe thoughts of knowing how much of an insane, savage, Ike, and mad man you are: where me being separate and disassociated with you is that much easier. I can tell you don't want my separation and dissociation to be easier anymore. I feel both your girth, and your lustful pulling yourself on top of me and pull. You want me to be more emotionally drawn and persuaded......... If I can't beat you. If I can't save myself from you or your violence, have your way with my limp and drug-refusing Mary Jane. Have your gator way with me too. If you could have a certain virus, I am refusing it. ...(Possible envious and competitive Russian where you have an ulterior motive). (I know I can still be called a Russian, but will still say I am not of your kind of Russian or kind of anything)... ... . ........